Writing Sucks I Mean I Love It
By Lori Mocha
Well here's the deal, writing isn't always so very super fun. I sorta hate it actually. It's lonely and can be super boring.
But I love it too. It has its obvious rewards or I wouldn't do it. And I love to make people laugh. LOVE IT.
Yet what I love most is the connection.
I like to think of us all laughing together, my readers and I. And them going yeah and! And me going yeah I know! And we are all laughing and going oh my god I know what you mean! And then we laugh and laugh and laugh some more.
That is why I write. For that feeling. That is why blogging is my first true love. The instant connection. It feels so great. No revision required.
Now revising. That is the hardest part of writing for me. Chopping up the same damn thing over and over. Soooooo boring.
Oh and lonely. It's total isolation.
I struggle with that HARDCORE. I don't want to sit here all alone condensing life. I want to write and move on to the next thing.
However, I know when something I write could be better. I know I should fix it. But fixing it is tedious busy work. Ugh.
Instead, it might seem I prefer to just lie on the couch crying about my buckets of lost dreams when I should find inspiration in making buckets of cash for what I ultimately love to do. I know that's unoriginal. But I need more than integrity to live. And not just for my underwater ipod but for important stuff like all my medication.
For now though, I'll just sit back and blog. Oh and write inappropriate emails, especially late at night. Oh man, do I love to write those. Probably because I don't have to revise them.
But if I ever want to be a "real writer" then I probably need to revise something once in awhile.
What a bunch of baloney.
In the end I guess less is more, but when is more enough?
I am laughing and I know what you mean! :D
Posted by: Emily Larner | Apr 17, 2008 at 03:54 PM
I can totally relate. I love to write, but I also love to procrastinate. Interestingly, the two don't mix very well.
Posted by: Meribah | Apr 17, 2008 at 08:12 PM
You all should know that I revised this a lot.
Posted by: Lori | Apr 18, 2008 at 06:40 PM
I didn't write a preamble to this post, but if I had, it would have said, "I first read Lori in 1999, in the BUST.com Lounge, and was immediately drawn to her writing, not only for what she was saying, but for her inimitable style and awesome sense of humor. Lori rocks."
Posted by: Janice | Apr 20, 2008 at 11:15 PM
Oh Janice. I so much appreciate the encouragement. And I can't believe we've known each other almost ten fucking years!
Posted by: Lori | Apr 22, 2008 at 06:41 AM
LORI MOCHA,
Where is my picture?
Crying myself to sleep at night,
Julie_Gong
Posted by: Julie_Gong | Apr 22, 2008 at 12:32 PM